I realize that I should not stay with such an impractical, immature and impulsive decision that I had taken just because of a lack of alternatives in this situation. I must learn to let go. Let go things that I can’t have, situations not controlled by me and people whose thinking patterns I can not monitor. However, it’s not the easiest of all.
The slight hope of making things work between us stops me from making any amendments but the fear of the eventual imminent loss does not die. It happens, either now or then. In fact, the probability of its not happening is just a single percent of the hundredth, thereby indicating that I must consider revisions, over and over again till I decide on what my mind wants to decide. That’s how it’s supposed to be. That’s how even I think it should be.
And if I stay, let it grow, the end would be catastrophic, precisely. The point being, I can see it happening and who says avoiding something is wise enough. I must stop and run back to the point wherefrom the ways diverged before I walk too far to look back and meet the dead end.
Feels bad but Life it is.
